This is a little entry I wrote right after Mihaela left..... Literally. Right. After. She. Left... So this is a little emotional and probably a bit drastic..
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I don't know why but for some reason when I walked back into the hospital after they took Mihi, I half expected her to come running down the hallway to me like she had been doing for almost 2 weeks now...
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We were sitting at lunch, just about to finish up when Mihaela got a phone call. Mihi and Gabi are leaving. Do we want to say goodbye?... Some people gasped and said yes quickly in reply. Me? I just sat there as a single tear fell from my eyes...No. I couldn't go see her again.. It would be too hard to say goodbye..I just couldn't do it.
I walked outside and sat on a bench and turned my ipod up really loud. and just sat there and cried. The other volunteers slowly came out after saying their goodbyes, My mom told me to get up and at least watch then leave...I stood up and saw Coca holding Gabi and holding Mihi by the hand. Mihi saw me and took off running to me..She ran into my arms and all I did was hug her and cry. I said a little prayer that these foster parents would be loving to her and Gabi. Then I remembered her favorite game "sus" which means "up" in romanian...
"Sus?" I asked her
"Da" she replied
I proceeded to toss her into the air about 5 times as she giggled and laughed. Then I hugged her once more as more tears fell from my eyes. "Goodbye sweetheart, I love you." I whispered in her ear and she just looked at me and smiled..
"Pa." (Goodbye.) I told her as I put her back down.
"Pa!!" she giggled and waves and she went back to Coca.
More tears came falling down as she got into the car and finally went away.
Goodbye Mihi. I love you
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I am sitting here int he hospital and all the kids seems the same. Ana Maria is giggling. Elena is smiling... Where is my little Mihi's laugh? Where is Gabi sitting with her gold glitter ball?... gone.
They are gone. and they won't be back.
I will just learn to adapt with the other kids. But Mihi will always be my little sweetheart. I will miss her laugh. her smile... and even her little pout.
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Sorry for all the emotional stuff.. but I felt you guys should know how much it affected me to see her leave...
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
First Day at the Hospital...
The first day at the hospital was surprising.. As soon as we got in there a few of the nurses tried explaining what was wrong with each baby but it was mostly in Romanian.. Lol. But I finally got to meet Marius. He is such a little cutie. Some people may remember him from my mom's past trips to Romania... He was crying as soon as we walked in the hospital and I was too afraid at first the nurses would say I couldn't hold him or something... haha. But then we got to go explore the different rooms with the different kids. I found my little sweetheart the first day, Mihaela. (me-hi-a-la).. She is the sweetest little girl and is 2 1/2 years old... I also really started to bond with Ionella. (yo-nell-a).. she is a little girl who is only 10 months old.
Right before lunch, They came to talk Marius away. :/ They came to take him back to the Placement center. It was a bittersweet moment...
I have become a "mama".. Mihaela (Mihi for short) has clung to me ever since I got her. :)
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The first day was great. I didn't bring my camera because I wanted to bond with the kids first and figure out their personalities.. Any questions? Comment :)
Right before lunch, They came to talk Marius away. :/ They came to take him back to the Placement center. It was a bittersweet moment...
I have become a "mama".. Mihaela (Mihi for short) has clung to me ever since I got her. :)
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The first day was great. I didn't bring my camera because I wanted to bond with the kids first and figure out their personalities.. Any questions? Comment :)
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Finally made it!!
We just made it to our hotel in Barlad! I would have written another blog sooner except my stupid computer language was in Dutch. -_-
I'm sitting in the hotel room waiting for someone to talk to,to get online. :P
The flight to Amsterdam was nice... Very small space but at least I got to watch movies and eat dinner and breakfast. :) I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and an episode of Glee! They fed us cashews and a drink for the first part of the flight. Then we got dinner -- Chicken and pasta, a nasty potato salad (which I didn't eat), Crackers and cheese, And delicious carrot cake. (I don't even like carrot cake but I LOVED this one.) Then they gave us time to do whatever we wanted and then served breakfast -- Egg, potatoes, and yogurt... (I didn't eat anything but the potatoes) Lol.
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When we got to Amsterdam we went to our hotel. We got a mood room... So awesome. The shower had mood lights that changed as you changed your settings in your room. The bed was pretty big and had a blanket that I thought was a pillow. LOL.
When we had rested up a bit then we headed out to see the city. Wow.... It was crazy. People drinking everywhere and smoking non stop. And every shop we went in had something to do with weed.... We walked around trying to find Anne Frank's house and then finally had to ask some people. Lol.... We walked in the rain and it was cold. Sorta like spring back home. haha. So... I didn't think I would be almost ran over by a bicycle... I was wrong. Me and mom had to be VERY careful because apparently the bicyclers don't have to follow street signs, oh well, we lived! :)
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Now we are in Romania and sitting in the hotel room. There is a wedding downstairs and it is very very loud. We are on the 2nd floor and the wedding is on the bottom and we can still hear it as if we were standing in the same room as the music. -_- And there are a million dogs barking outside my window. greatttt..... Lol. Guess I am going to need some ear plugs..
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I just want everyone to know I miss them already!!....But I am having fun here. Lol.
My team members are great. I think I already have an idea of who I like the most.. But tomorrow there will be a grandfather and his grandchildren coming. A boy who is 15 and a girl who is 13.. I can't wait to meet them. It will be nice to have someone my age to hang out with. :)
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Well.... Unless someone gets online to talk to me I think I am heading to bed. Goodnight everyone!!
I'm sitting in the hotel room waiting for someone to talk to,to get online. :P
The flight to Amsterdam was nice... Very small space but at least I got to watch movies and eat dinner and breakfast. :) I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and an episode of Glee! They fed us cashews and a drink for the first part of the flight. Then we got dinner -- Chicken and pasta, a nasty potato salad (which I didn't eat), Crackers and cheese, And delicious carrot cake. (I don't even like carrot cake but I LOVED this one.) Then they gave us time to do whatever we wanted and then served breakfast -- Egg, potatoes, and yogurt... (I didn't eat anything but the potatoes) Lol.
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When we got to Amsterdam we went to our hotel. We got a mood room... So awesome. The shower had mood lights that changed as you changed your settings in your room. The bed was pretty big and had a blanket that I thought was a pillow. LOL.
When we had rested up a bit then we headed out to see the city. Wow.... It was crazy. People drinking everywhere and smoking non stop. And every shop we went in had something to do with weed.... We walked around trying to find Anne Frank's house and then finally had to ask some people. Lol.... We walked in the rain and it was cold. Sorta like spring back home. haha. So... I didn't think I would be almost ran over by a bicycle... I was wrong. Me and mom had to be VERY careful because apparently the bicyclers don't have to follow street signs, oh well, we lived! :)
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Now we are in Romania and sitting in the hotel room. There is a wedding downstairs and it is very very loud. We are on the 2nd floor and the wedding is on the bottom and we can still hear it as if we were standing in the same room as the music. -_- And there are a million dogs barking outside my window. greatttt..... Lol. Guess I am going to need some ear plugs..
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I just want everyone to know I miss them already!!....But I am having fun here. Lol.
My team members are great. I think I already have an idea of who I like the most.. But tomorrow there will be a grandfather and his grandchildren coming. A boy who is 15 and a girl who is 13.. I can't wait to meet them. It will be nice to have someone my age to hang out with. :)
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Well.... Unless someone gets online to talk to me I think I am heading to bed. Goodnight everyone!!
Monday, June 13, 2011
2 Days to go..
Hello Everyone,
This is my first post and I would just like to tell you a little bit about what this blog will be about and my fast approaching mission trip. In two days I will be leaving the country on a mission trip to Romania. As many of you know, my mom has gone to Romania before, but this will be my first time making this life changing journey. My mother and I will be working in a hospital in a town named Barlad. We will be taking care of any child that just needs love...
Now most of you have been asking.. "How do you feel?".. That seems like such a simple question to answer but really when you are experiencing this it is so hard to answer.. I am happy that I have this wonderful opportunity, I am scared of what awaits me over there, I am nervous about leaving the country for the first time, and I have been having this emotional battle with myself over which of these I should be feeling and which should be more dominate. I am going to forewarn everyone who will be reading this blog while I am away that I may should like I am happy to be there one minute and then upset of not being home the next. I know I have a ton of people back home praying for me everyday, Thank you. :)
Now.. Back to my blog.. Lol. The title may seem familiar to some of you.. It is a song by John Denver, I personally like Chantal Kreviazuk's version better, but the song is about someone leaving and having to leave someone they love behind, and they are telling the person just to hold them and that everything will be okay. I recommend everyone to listen to it. :) This song is so fitting to me right now, I have a fabulous group of friends and family and the best boyfriend ever, that I will be leaving for 3 weeks. But I know that they will be waiting for me when I return with open arms. :)
I hope I can make a new post everyday when I get back to my hotel... If you have any questions about my trip please feel free to email me at tikigirl123@gmail.com. :)
This is my first post and I would just like to tell you a little bit about what this blog will be about and my fast approaching mission trip. In two days I will be leaving the country on a mission trip to Romania. As many of you know, my mom has gone to Romania before, but this will be my first time making this life changing journey. My mother and I will be working in a hospital in a town named Barlad. We will be taking care of any child that just needs love...
Now most of you have been asking.. "How do you feel?".. That seems like such a simple question to answer but really when you are experiencing this it is so hard to answer.. I am happy that I have this wonderful opportunity, I am scared of what awaits me over there, I am nervous about leaving the country for the first time, and I have been having this emotional battle with myself over which of these I should be feeling and which should be more dominate. I am going to forewarn everyone who will be reading this blog while I am away that I may should like I am happy to be there one minute and then upset of not being home the next. I know I have a ton of people back home praying for me everyday, Thank you. :)
Now.. Back to my blog.. Lol. The title may seem familiar to some of you.. It is a song by John Denver, I personally like Chantal Kreviazuk's version better, but the song is about someone leaving and having to leave someone they love behind, and they are telling the person just to hold them and that everything will be okay. I recommend everyone to listen to it. :) This song is so fitting to me right now, I have a fabulous group of friends and family and the best boyfriend ever, that I will be leaving for 3 weeks. But I know that they will be waiting for me when I return with open arms. :)
I hope I can make a new post everyday when I get back to my hotel... If you have any questions about my trip please feel free to email me at tikigirl123@gmail.com. :)
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